Oh man, why is it I can never find anything to write about when I get here?  I feel like I could explode, but I can't get anything out...  Grrrrr.....

So, what's new?

Children's Theatre is over now, and my Drama class is being catapulted into working on Grease for our spring production.  I didn't think I'd be very excited about it because I've never seen Grease, but I'm really looking forward to it.    Plus, I was cast as Frenchy, so this should prove interesting.    My teacher says she might like to make my hair pink for the show which sounds soooooo cool, but my mom says it has to be one of those temporary dyes because she doesn't want my hair to be pink for graduation three weeks after the show.    hahaha, I think pink hair would be awesome.    Good stuff.

' Went and saw "She's the Man" on Saturday with a good friend of mine and had a blast!  It was nice to go out and hang out ya know?    Plus, it was an awesome movie, ya'll should go see it.

Huh, what else?

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Gosh, I hate this stupid emotional wall I'm up against...  I'm feeling so much, but not at the same time.  Emotionally, I feel so full and exhausted and frustrated, but physically, I don't feel so much.  Sunday and yesterday my fingers and arms felt so numb.  I would reach out to touch something, and I really couldn't feel it, honestly.  I knew I was touching something, like my hair brush, or the keys on this keyboard, but I couldn't feel it.  It felt like I'd been shot with novocaine, like my entire body was soaked with it.   It's been like that for a while.  Maybe that's why I've been thinking about cutting, maybe if I cut, I could actually feel something, ya know??  But I won't do it, I can't.  I've promised too many people and I've promised myself, never again..

I just wish I could feel something.  Anything!  I don't feel things like I should be...

Maybe I'm broken...  Yah, I'll bet ya that's what's wrong..

I'm so confused.....

*/arianne